Today we get brutally honest about spiritual doubts during challenging seasons—the kind missionaries and ministry leaders are supposed to have figured out but rarely admit they're wrestling with.

This isn't about having all the answers—it's about what happens when you're the one telling others to trust God while you're staring at the ceiling wondering if He hears you.

What you'll discover:

• Why acceptance is the only stage that actually moves you forward—and how all the other stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression) keep us stuck in their emotions instead of helping them process and lead
• The 1 AM practice that helps Mike fall asleep—speaking to himself using the words God would say, not as self-aggrandizement but as the voice of a father talking to his 46-year-old son who's still wrestling
• Mary's nine-month transition nightmare—not knowing where they'd live within 48 hours of moving to Mexico, feeling spiritually done, and finally landing on "I'm not in control anymore" (plus what happened next)
• The "I am" statements that brought Mary to tears—going through scripture to collect identity markers, and why "worthy" hit differently than all the others when you've been trying to prove yourself through ministry performance
• The question that discharges unhelpful emotions—how asking "is this thought actually helpful right now?" helps you discern whether you need cosmic intervention, community connection, or just a nap and a walk